4.11.2012

hi.

hello there. sorry i have been mia lately. i haven't even posted my weekly challenge words for the linked 52 project. i have just been down a bit lately. would you like to join me in my pity party? i live in a travel trailer and some days i just get down about it. when i am busy it's ok but the days where i don't have a ton to do and i just sit around wallowing in my houselessness i just want to "as wendy so eloquently put it" stab myself in the eye with a fork!

i miss having my own home
i miss sending my kids to their rooms when they are in trouble
i miss beautiful open spaces to take pictures of my family in their natural environment.
i miss windows
i miss light
i miss doing my laundry when i want without someone being very concerned that i haven't done it in over a week
i miss my bathtub
i miss cupboards and places for everything
i miss my kids all having a bed (bonnie sleeps on the couch)
i miss a time when i could go more than a day or 2 without stubbing a toe
i miss real tv
i miss alone time with my husband (because face it...in 250 sq feet, you're NEVER alone)
i miss staying in my pajamas all day and not caring because nobody saw me

OK enough complaining. I know this is temporary but every once in a while i just need to vent, and since you are here reading this i assume you care. pray for me and i the next time i post it's not from the hospital because i stabbed myself in the eye with a fork!


9 comments:

Michelle said...

I care. And I will pray for you. Love you. (((hugs))) And don't stick any forks in your eye, k?
K.

Andrea said...

I care and I will pray, friend. hugs to you.

Tracey said...

I'm so sorry K. Are you building a home? Why are you in a trailer? Whatever the reason I feel for you! I would feel that way too--just the longing to be rested in real space. I will pray that you can find some peace and maybe some time with your hubby. :)
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rhonda said...

I can't even IMAGINE how hard what you are doing would be!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll pray for you too!

sara said...

xoxo
praying.

Liza said...

LOL!!! Okay, can we have your husband's email so we can ask him to keep the forks away from you?

Chin up! I can totally relate. I'll be homeless in a few short weeks and living in a hotel out of my suitcase for about a month or so. In the meantime, we'll pray for you because we care like that!!! ; )

Naomi said...

Saying a prayer! Hugs!

Heidi said...

It's funny you posted this on my birthday because I was having a HUGE pity party that day (Just ask Andrew) I felt like nobody cared that it was my birthday or that I'm not special enough - I mean, my own parents didn't even call!!
So I will join your pity party anytime. I know what you're going through - I lived with my inlaws (and great grandma) for 2 1/2 years with no car. So chin up and just keep swimming :)

Heather M. said...

thinking of you! hang in there.